Hangin' Out

Baru ajer azam tahun baru ingat nak mengurangkan kadar melepak...but then, it is not working as well as i planned (neither is losing weight or quit smoking)....tapi itu ler kan, sometimes it is an essential component in you daily life nak melepak dengan memember after work....tapi slalu lepak dengan kengkawan rapat ajer la....jarang skali aku melepak dengan new group of people that i had just been introduced.....tapi okay la jugak...it is quite boring nak balik rumah directly after work....

And then lagi, aku skg ni dok giler ler nak masak yang best best (padahal tak sedap tara mana pon)...just to ease up my time...and skg ni pon aku dah ada Celcom Broadband kat rumah...so there's not much of a reason for me to hang out in Starbucks, Old Town Kopitiam dan sewaktu dengannya hanya kerna aku nak log on to the net....balas emails from my friends (who arent in fesbuk as they have slighty negative opinion about it) kekadang chatting dengan akak aku yang kat US and several of my friends if i manage to catch them online....tapi itu la....aku dah makin tua la kot sebab aku rasa i cant seem to enjoy it as much as i was back then....

Dulu waktu uni aku slalu suka beli CD, DVD, VCD dan sewaktu dengannya and i have a list of people who are borrowing the cd's from me (in case kalau hilang, tapi aku tak pernah mintak refund pon)....skg ni plak, aku suka beli buku.....the latest aku baca is THE MACHIAVELLI COVENANT by ALAN FOLSOM....tapi tak abih lagi baca....beli kat C4, RM5 je....okay la tu...

Pastu skg ni waktu lapang ajer aku lagi suka dok kat rumah...unless kalau ada orang ajak lepak then aku kuar hang out....if not, then i just going to hibernate myself at home...aku still ingat lagi zaman-zaman aku dok initiate hang out outings....tapi that time has passed....

Ari tu aku balik dari europe, i done a lot of thinkings....especially of what i am going to do next? entah...aku pun tak tau aku nak wat aper sebenarnya...all i know i want to focus on building up my career, and insya allah if god's willing, aku nak apply for HLP to further my Masters (if can abroad la)...and also get married and have children....ntah ler...aku tak terfikir pun lagi pasal nak beli rumah la saving up (except that i do have savings).....yang aku tau, somehow i need to enjoy every moment of my 20's....sebab once dah masuk 30's, its going to be different....

Aku ingat lagi waktu time aku start kerja kat kl...ala ala kena culture shock la gak...biasa la kan aku ni orang kampung yang first time to actually live in the big city....then aku tukar kerja and working as a govt servant in the beautiful administrative city of Putrajaya....pun kena culture shock gak...at least work wise....dulu waktu kerja kat kl, balik ajer hang out kat kedai makan yang skg ni aku pikiaq spoloh kali gak ler nak lepak....skg kerja kat putrajaya....hurmm....balik rumah aje la...nak makan kat kedai cam Dapur Mas pon agak mahal gak ler (at least bagi aku) compared to KL....and bila pikiaq balik, i had a rough time adjusting my financial situation back then when i changed my job....tapi long-term...good change la....

Hari tu gi tengok ler citer 'Tarikku Ke Neraka'...bila aku tanya kawan aku dah tengok blum..dia cam terkial kial dok pikiaq tu citer indon ker citer mlayu yang dia tak pernah dengaq...but i received a full-force slap on my back biler aku kata it is actually DRAG ME TO HELL....adoiss....i was so tempted to give him a button...tapi okay la...tak marah pon...now Niha already booked tickets for Transformers....i heard that it is fully book till the end of the week...semua pon ckap cam pueh ati giler...so i cant wait to actually see Bumble Bee in action again....klaka arrr Bee....

Adoii....hujung minggu ni tak dpat la plak follow si zaimee gi Melaka....dah lama tak gi melaka...tapi takperlah...next time la kot....dah K.Lida pon dah nak gi wat masters...so gi makan BBQ dulu la....next month plak gi kenduri kawin zaimee kat Labuan....hurmmm...life is good...

Ajie

3:37 pm

26 Jun 2009

~when you are born loved and died loved, anything in between are bearable~

Selamat Birthday To Me!!!!

It has been more than two weeks since the date i was born to this beautiful world. Nak cakap dapat banyak hadiah pun, tak jugak. Since i always compared (or samakan la) my birthday to Hari Raya Celebration, i guess as one's grow older, the lesser duit raya you get (which is what happening to my birthday gift la plak).

Tapi, this year is the first birthday yang bebetul celebrate dengan kengkawan opis aku. Tahun lepas, i celebrated it in the middle of the sea (kat atas whaler waktu OBS kat LUMUT) dengan takdak handphone, coz the phone was taken away for the duration of 13 days kitorang kat LUMUT tu. The year before that, aku celebrate camna ek? Kinda forgotten about it. Tapi yang pastinya this year spells out something different.

In conjunction with my newly acquired hobby (dok masak makan sendirian berhad) 90% of my birthday gift this year is all associated with food (sama ada secara langsung atau tidak langsung). Let's do a recap of what i've got :

i. Cake Mixer (besh...aku memang nak satu sebab senang nak wat penkek ker konflek ker puding ker)
ii. Toaster Over (memang totally cool la sebab la ni bley baking baking la plak)
iii. Ferrero Rocher (apalagi, its time to get fat!!!)
iv. Hershey's Kisses (sama la going to get me fat)
v. Pen with my name engraved (very executive-like..i-like)
vi. Meal Voucher from various outlets (ni paling besh, coz Obi got thousands of points with his HSBC credit card, so dia tukaq la semua points tu jadi voucher makan kat kedai kek la, voucher nando's, voucher starbucks dan sewaktu dengannya la..)
vii. Dinner treats (banyak gak la aku melantak dalam the first week sahaja...always ada dinner..heheheh...biasa la aku hantu makan)
viii. Male 4 piece set (ada belt, wallet, card holder dengan one more i ter-foget la plak...tapi since aku baru ajer beli wallet baru waktu kat Germany, so aku simpan dulu)



...dan ada la lagi beberapa lagi yang aku toksah nak mentioned coz i worried some individual would think of it as bragging...still remember Z's exact word - details is bragging, so, NO details - but then again, dont read if you dont like it....bukan nyer ko kena paksa at gun point to read my blogs pon....so please refrain yourself from making outrageous comments that could only spell out STUPIDITY to your ownself....



Every year, birthday ajer mesti aku ada my own secret wish. Nak cakap ker no need? I think no need-lah. What for? dah nama pon secret Birthday wish. Tapi aku sangat happy tahun nie. Walaupun tak bley mengalahkan ke-happy-an aku time my 18th birthday 9 years ago, tapi still aku kena move on and dont be stranded in the past. Kalau nak maju, the past have to be let go.

So, aku pun dah umur tambah lagi another year, and its not going to decrease, PERIOD. Jadi aku kena ikut la peredaran my age. If not, mesti ada ajer yang tak pueh ati nak ngutok gak. WTF? Takpalah, not all human born into this world liked by satu dunia kan. Even Obama sendiri pon bukan satu dunia suka (tapi aku termasuk dalam yang suka la). So have to deal with it la since memang manusia semua nie memang ada ajer yang pueh ati looking at other's success.

One more very important mark in my birthday this year, the very first year aku celebrate birthday as a PAK NGAH. Alhamdulillah, Siti Nur Aishah completed (at least up till the moment i am writing this blog) my life. Add in satu lagi title to me, Pak Ngah yang comel lagi kiut and baik hati dan semua yang sewaktu dengannya. I can feel that someone out there are gagging waktu baca aku punya statement take my ownself up in the bakul. Tapi - WATEVER -...oklah...aku kena re-schedule aku punya social calendar sebab lots of my really close friends (the one in my souvenier list from europe) tak dapat lagi diorang punya souvinier. Kena la wat schedule. Huhu. Ampun maap dipinta if it is too late okay.




Ajie
12 :11 pm
24 June 2009
~do i owe myself be true~

With Arms Wide Open

1 June 2009, another addition to Abdul Wahab Family. Siti Nur Aishah was born. She's a Gemini. Like me, her uncle (so i guess she will turn out to be as good as i am..hahha). I am very happy to hear the addition. I have longed to be an uncle in a true nature for such a long time. Now i have someone to really call me as Pak Ngah.

So, Siti Nur Aishah, with arms wide open, i welcome you to this world. And guess what, i think you will be spoiled rotten by your 'Pak Ngah' and your other uncles and aunts (you have 7 of them)

Saturday - 2 May 2009

Yesterday was The Labour Day. What did i do on Labour Day. In justification that it is celebrated by the Labour World (working committee) i just rest at home. Woke up to pray. Then i just go off to KL to meet some of my friends. Then spending a nite in a hotel. Opppss. No. I helped paid for the hotel bills. Then my friend would pay me back. Had a great time with some of my friends. Close friends that is. It just feels different when you are spending times with your close friends (who are almost like a family members) rather than spending with your usual friends (who are not really in your black book list).

After the Friday prayers, i went off to Jalan Masjid India with my aunt to convert some cash into euro (going off to europe this upcoming Thursday despite the damn pigs flu). My, My. I nearly cleared my account book by doing this. euro1000 is approximately cost about RM4,740. I converted RM5000 so it was euro1055. What a big difference. I know well that its going to be like this. So might as well just go thru it. Then the 'tokey besar' aka my beloved cousin marya, told us that we have to convert another GBP200 for the train from newcastle and car rental (including gas). That spells out another RM2000++. OMG. I had spent so much on this trip that i had already lost track of my account book. To date i had spent nearly RM10000 to make this trip possible. Gosh! What da hell i had got myself into. Remember. Its just once in a lifetime. Take a deep breath. Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale again. And again, and again.

Went off to Marya's place in Shah Alam to drop off the cash. Then send my aunt back to gombak and Obi came and picked me up to his place in Shah Alam. We spend the rest of the nite watching DVD. DVD marathon nite. I fell asleep thru it. Obi also passed out after the third DVD. Woke up to find it is already 5.30 am in the morning. Both of us got up and take a shower and went off to Shah Alam's mosque for Subuh prayers.

Had breakfast in Ani Sup. Cool. Great dish. Then we were talking about all those rich kids who are around us making such a big noise that draws all of other customers attention to them. WTF. Then Obi started off thinking what a waste. They have their parents money to spend and us (both of us) work hard just to pay off some bills. Do we regretted that we are born to this life. No. We enjoyed every seconds. Both of us are from the middle class family. Had enough. Those rich kids never knew how hard the life can be. All they know that they have money (eventho it comes from the FAMA's account). And they dared to comment about other people's pathetic life. WTF. Pathetic? Hope that god will some day teach them some lesson.

Get off from breakfast and i Obi dropped me off to my aunt's as he is en route to Genting to meet up his long-time-no-see girlfriend. I resume back with sleep. Then packed my stuffs (laundry i mean) and off to Putrajaya. Fidi going to stay overnite at my place tonite. So just might as well go back to Putrajaya. Anyway i have to go to Melaka tomorrow to pick up my brother's stuff. At least i have a reason to leave KL for a while. Gosh. I love my life. And i just hate some rich kids who dared to comment about others and doesnt really know about other's life. They think they understands life? I don't think so. If they made that kind of stupid comments about other people, then i guess they don't know life at all. All they know that they are born into silverspoon (or platinum for all that matters) and some people are plain pathetic trying to do something that they can do easily without a lift of a finger.

Yeah, you own the best laptop in town, you owned a car that i don't think you can afford with your own paycheck, you can afford to go to 5 stars hotel. But then again. Could you afford it yourself without your papa mama's help? I don't think so. So stop making comments that only show off your own stupidity and ignorance about a true life and reserve it for your circle's only. Your circle are the only person know how to react to such comments that spells out arrogance in every single language.

I just have to stop. Rich kids are just fortunate in one way. That is spells out by 5 letters word. M-O-N-E-Y. Other than that. You guys are simply clueless. But then again. This does not spells out to everyone. But some d**kheads that i have a 'pleasure' to encounter in my life. I should just stop at this point. Got to go brush off this thing.

Thursday - 30 April 2009

It has been a while since i last updated my blog. It kinda feels weird. Coz this is supposed to be some sort of a daily journal for me. But instead i got quite busy this week that i find it is some sort of chore to update my blog. But i just love to write. That is a passion that i had nurtured since forever. Since my father wasn't enthralled at the prospect of me pursuing journalism. I got into science streams, took bachelor in applied science majoring in physics, working with a japanese company for almost a year before got in the service that my father wished me to be in. Life turns out well enough despite some hiccups here and there.

Today i woke up early in the morning only to find myself pulling back my blanket as i feel so sleepy. So resume with my sleep after re-setting my alarm time to 7.30 am. Got myself a meeting this morning. This time around i had learned from my past mistakes. So i got myself another laptop to continue writing the minute on the spot so that i can actually get the grasp of the meeting. Turns out well and i emailed the minutes less than an hour after the meeting. Waha!

Today also marks the end of DPA for my fellow friends in INTAN. Some of them stay at the same place prior to the DPA, and some got posted somewhere else. And to my amazement, one of my friends got posted somewhere out of his previous posting ministry. But his last post in the ministry (of nobody can go out even if they tried) was to his liking. Don't know what exactly happen to produce such result. Anyway, not going to dwell on that. Just trying to register myself with the disappointment i had watching WOLVERINE yesterday.

I had a very high expectation for the movie. But turns out it is just a so-so (trying to be nice la). X-Men III : The Last Stand which many criticised as BAD (but for me it was a joy to watch) and i mean badder than wolverine. But i beg to differ. As i think that i had truly love the X-Men III. Compared to Wolverine which i think was too draggy and bad dialogue. (But the movie really great at the trailers).

Having to deal with that, i just remembered that tomorrow is the Labour's Day. What am i going to do on Labour's Day?Hurmmm. Still thinking. I have to go Melacca to get Mimi's things on Saturday (but Emma prefers Sunday) and all in all i have to think about the budget as well. And swine flu (damn the pigs!) seriously making my pre-planned trip inevitable. Hopefully it wont caused an outbreak as i spent so much on making this trip into reality. By hook or by crook i am so going to Europe. Regardless. I just pray to God to watched over us during the 2 weeks we are there. Damn the PIGS! Again! Now i have more understanding why we are totally banned against the PIGS. PIGS, PIGS, PIGS. Damn the PIGS!

I am getting a little bit emotional about this. But then again. I just try to focus on things that have more merit. The clock is showing 6 o'clock. Time to go back. Bubye.

Indonesia From My Lens

It was a lovely trip

Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday - 20, 21 & 22 April 2009

I havent updated my blog in three days. I'm quite busy for the last three days. Both work & personal. Getting mad and getting riled up is a theme for these past three days. Thanks to the workloads and my little sister.

One thing that really riled me up is how my little sister actually view my obligation towards her as a brother. Sometimes i just felt that she never once tried to understand my predicament and my comitment towards my work. All she knew that i am her brother and its my duty to help her and take care of her. I never feel obliged to comment on that until recently i just think that she is really trying to test my limit.

Yess. I would say that i put a limit towards everything but i become flexible with close friends and family. Coz they are all i have. And all that i think i need. But sometimes, i am getting the feeling that i had been taken for granted. What i think is unnecessary as long as i can serve their purposes.

Back to my little sister. Yess, i do care about my little sister. And i will try to help out whenever that i can (which is almost everytime). But then again, she also have to think twice before she do something. Somehow she just likes to do things without thinking of the consequences and let me trying to clean up the mess afterwards. And after receive some of my bloody temper, everything would cool down and she just asume that i am cool with it and she will do it over again over the years to come. Hurmm. What should i do? After all she is still my little sister.

These days haven't been kind as well. I have tons of work to do (mostly got myself to blame for unable to manage my workloads). Mostly from the most recent Budgetting and also the upcoming Finance Administration & Account Committee Meeting this upcoming Friday. I was chased by the tail by my superiors. But this is working life and working experience as i gained thruout each day means alot to me.

The new minister seems like a nice person. Havent got the chance to actually know him. But i think i will after June as i might have to take on Parliamentary job on top of what i am doing rite now as we are kinda short-handed. Its okay. I need the extra cash anyway. Its for six months as Bra is going off for DPA in June. My eurotrip. Owh. Gosh. I still havent change my money to euro. GBP is getting higher and higher as each day passes.

My little sister commented that she is bored in the hostel and she needs to get out from there for a while. So i went to her hostel to take her to emma's house. I cant bring her to mine as it is single man's house. And i have male housemates. It is out of the question. Then she done her thing again. Failed to let me know that she is actually has been skipping exams and tests coz she was on MC. Hello! I was a student before. And i had never taken lightly on the subject of examinations and tests. Gosh. I dont know how i can just let her know that she cant go on being they way she is rite now for the times to come. Its unjustified. I am getting riled up.

Send her back on Wednesday and i refused to talk to her coz i know i might get mad. Shoot. I took her for dinner, coz she said she was hungry, i took her to movies coz she said she was kinda stressed out. But then, there was just one little thing that i had asked. To go back as early as possible. Thats all. But that was not the way it had happened. After the movies she said that she had sent her clothes to the laundry. And i have to go back all the way to emma's house to pick that up and then send her back to hostel. OMFG! I was bloody furious that i refused to speak to her. She knew that i will get angry. And she knew that i had asked her to be prudent to time. But then again. She just likes to test my nerves. It getting on my nerves. Ya ALLAH! Please give me strength to face all this. I just worried that i might blow up.

I still have reports to be done and ready. And its already 2am in the morning. I just go to sleep. And while i'm at it, i just pray and pray again that Allah will give me strength to face all this and get on with my life. Just let me have a will to go on for the next day.

Sunday - 19 April 2009

We have a plan today. Playing with water in Sunway Lagoon. I had been living in KL almost 4 years now. But this marks my first time going there. I'm thinking of going to have fun. Paid RM48 for the whole day pass to two parks, water park & amusement park. There was only 4 of us. Zaza, Mym, Che & I. As usual, i am the last malay man. Hurmm.

Arrived about 9.30am in the morning. OMG! There's so many people. TV9 are having their family day there. With the video rolling and all. It was hectic here in Sunway Lagoon. We went to the dressing room and change to the swim/wet clothing. Stored our bags inside the locker (which cost RM5 per token) and then Zaza mentioned that no camera shoot with the wetsuit. Hurmmm. Okay.

Went off here and there trying to find whats the RM48 worth. Haha. Found some. But most of the times we just went inside the pool and play with the water. Somehow i got the feeling that the RM48 was not worth it at all.

Finished playing with the water, everybody was tired out. But still, we have to make our RM48 worth it. So we walk up to the amusement park. Went on a ride on the ferris wheels (not thrilled about it at all!) then go up the roller coaster (hahahaha. This one was good!). Wanted to get on the swingin ship, but suddenly we heard the thunder so it kinda put off the entire mood. Decided then and there to go out to Sunway Pyramid to eat.

It gotten bigger and bigger than the first time i set foot in it. This time around we were trying to find the surau but somehow, everybody was tired out and everybody was hungry, and me, being my usual self got some high-voiced shoot down. Then, just like that, i lost my spirit. It has been like that since i can remember it. Its not that i was small-heart, but if someone just raised their voice to me suddenly, it will took all my spirit out of my body. I will lost my appetite and have this scared feeling to voice out anything. Just an old thing about me. Sometimes i rather refer it as my awkwardness. I can't deal with sudden high-voiced thrown at me. Still remembered that Ikram back then knew about this particular thing of me, then would just blast off anyone who dared to raised up their voice towards me. But that was long time ago. And he is no longer here.

Then i just walk up and down Sunway feeling spiritless. And i really just want to go home. The last time i was in this state was few months back when Adi 'jerkah' me out of a sudden. It really shocked me to the bone that i didn't really talk to anyone for almost a week. Adi realise it was too late and i just can't talk to him like usual anymore as i have this constant guard up whenever i am around him. Till now.

We went to Carl's Jr. But i seriously don't feel like eating. Then we decided to go back since everybody is kinda tired. Once arrived at my flat, i just dried up my clothes, done my Asar prayers and then just lied down. When i woke up, its already quarter past eight. Immediately i done my maghrib prayers then just resume to get ready to sleep after isya'. My soul still staggered from the afternoon's event. And i don't know how long its going to get away this time. Hopefully it wont take too long. But it is just something about me. Just something that really made it hard for me to change.

That is, I easily got scared off. Just by a simple high-voiced sound of another human at a sudden speed. Gosh, sometimes i just think that i am too fragile for my own good. That nite i fell asleep praying that Allah will give me a strength for me to go face another tomorrow.

Saturday - 18 April 2009

Today is Saturday. What an understatement. But i have meeting today. WTF. Have to since we have no other dates available. Otherwise the Budget had to be prolonged to another date which i am trying very much to avoid.

So, i woke up feeling not as on usual weekend. Do my prayers. Done some stretching. Then go back to sleep. Hurmm. Woke up again at 8am. Fixed myself some breakfast. Then turn on the TV. Nothing interesting to watch. Get dressed and head to the office.

We are having meeting to finalised the budget figures for the 2010 budget for the ministry. It took a while to get everything done, but in the end i feel better coz now i can just go on and do the budget and mail out the decisions.

Back from the office and as usual head back to Gombak to do my laundry. Since there's no internet/broadband, then have to jalan-jalan cari wireless. And god, am i hungry. Decided to go for KFC. The one that has wireless. But the wireless was so damn stupid. Can't really log on to my liking. Finished my meals then head back to Putrajaya.

Tomorrow going to Sunway Lagoon. I had been staying in KL for almost 4 years now but i never set foot on Sunway Lagoon before. Going to be my first. Think i am going to have fun tomorrow. Hope that i will have fun. After going thru a hectic weeks now i think i have to reward myself with something.

Going to bed now. Praying that god will give me strength to face another tomorrow.

Thursday & Friday - 16 & 17 April 2009

Yesterday it was so hectic that i didnt manage to update anything. Except uploading my photos with the new VAIO. Yeah. The VAIO had arrived. All the way from the states. Thanks sister. Now back to the real world where i have no time for the time being.

Went to DBKL in the afternoon for the meeting. Finished with the meeting, went straight back to the office whereas there was lot of things to be updated on my table. Still trying very much to survive under the intense workloads. But luckily this time, my immediate boss was around. God bless.

Went back home. But needed to buy the extension socket for the VAIO. While walking around, i was smitten by the book sale they are having in C4. All for RM5/- each. Crikey! I lurve it. Manage to find 10 books that catched my attention but then have to narrow it down to 3. Remember, need to save up for the eurotrip. Bought 3 for only RM15/-. Nice.

Bumped into Ghani while i was going out of C4. And as usual, weight issues are NOT to be mentioned. Hahah. He is using iPhone 3G now. WTF! Just chit chat for a while then i headed back to my flat. The road tax expired by 12am. So, no going out tonite.

TV came back as the IN thing for me as broadband was already out of the question. American Idol was on air. There are some seriously good performances. But i like Danny among all the contestant. I think he has something special about the voice that suit almost every song that he sang. Last nite he sang Endless Love.

Took out one of the books that i had bought. I read the Wulf Chronicles. Kinda cool. And manage to finished it by 2 a.m. Then i went to sleep. End of Thursday.

Friday starts up with the lazy feeling. Not going to jog today. I have sore mind. Don't think i want to tired myself out. So i just go back to sleep until 7.30am after i finished with my Subuh prayers. Drove up to the office with expired road tax on my windscreen. Hope that i can get the new one by today. Head inside my office room. OMG! I'm so tired out. But still i have lots of thing to be done.

Back to work. Gosh. There's lot of things. And i started doing the checklist on everything that needed to be done. Segregate it to my staffs and also discuss with my immediate boss of what to do next. Manage to do that well enough to keep me on track of my work.

Going thru the day full of work. Until late at nite. Still very much in the office. Trying to prepare for the meeting tomorrow which is by the way is Saturday. Very much for the thinking that govt servants are relaks bunch. Trying to go thru with all the preparation made me having a headache. Major one. Its not easy to be working with the biggest company in Malaysia aka The Government.

Now i am going to finish it up and go back and have a nice rest and take a deep nap and come back to the office 10am tomorrow morning. Hurm. Doesnt really sound like a good idea. But its the only thing that i have to do for tomorrow. Please God give me strength to go thru another day.