Sunday, December 25, 2011

Bitter Ending For 2012

24 December 2011...
Morning

I was on a road trip with my friends down south when i first been notified with the news...one of our dear friend in the service had complications during childbirth and was fighting for her life...immediately i made a quick prayer that she will recovers and be able to see her son who was also in a critical condition...she lost too much blood and her blood type was a very rare type indeed...B -ve...upon hearing the news...immediately most of us flooded our walls asking help from our fb-friends to donor some blood in order to help her...she gave birth in a private clinic/ hospital and when the complications arose she was immediately transferred to the government hospital...

Afternoon

Got some updates from our friends via fb that she was stable...20 packets of blood had been used to save her life...and i being one of the many who prayed for her recovery felt relief to hear that...hopefully that she can wake up from this...

Evening

Suddenly got some updates that her conditions is worsening...she was totally on life support system and the family members are called in by the doctor...i watched too many medical drama so i know that when this happens it usually won't end up pretty...

25 December 2011...
Midnite/ Early Morning

I was not feeling in the festive season...not feeling great about going on having fun while out there one of my friend was desperately fighting for her life...so i told the roadtrip gang about it...they fully understands...i drove Ady's car back to Putrajaya...my blekberi keeps gettin updates from friends who had been updating all of us with her progress...i just passed Melaka when i picked up my blekberi and read a simple bbm message from Aina...three words but enough to make my mind went blank... Noria dah xde...one of our dear friend had been invited by Allah to go and meet our Maker...

Reached home...freshen up...then went to the ERL to wait for Aina, Idham, Said and Ned...then off to LCCT to book the first flight out to Kota Bharu...untuk menunaikan hak terakhir sebagai seorang rakan...we missed the earliest flight...so we waited for the next flight at 935am...Faryna joined us while we were waiting for our flight...

Reached KB...we were picked up by Ned's father...i also asked help from my friend, Zarir...we went to her home somewhere in PCB...they are getting ready to bathe and kafan...i saw her husband who is also a good friend of us...Akram...walking down the road...just got back from the hospital to see the baby...he looked tired...exhausted...defeated...i can't imagine how it feels like to be in his shoes...i can still remember how excited he was when he got married last year that the very next day he texted me saying ~Kahwin best Mal...lagi best dari traveling...hahaha~ and i can feel his excitement of being a father to be...every time i went out of the country...he never fail to ask me to search for something baby-related...supposedly...today should be the day of joy for both Akram and Noria...but Allah has better plans for her...and also for him...who are we to question that...words of comfort wouldn't be enough...but we have to move on with our life...

I can't help it when i saw jenazah arwah...kaku terbaring...sebak terasa...

Afternoon

Arwah was buried at the nearby mosque...selesai sembahyangkan arwah...jenazah arwah diangkat untuk dimasukkan ke liang lahat...where she lies for eternity...her mom was terribly crushed...the look on her mom's face tells everything that can't be put into words...its normal for the children to bury their parents...but its devastating when the other way around happened...

Evening

The rest of the gang booked 5pm flight back to KL...i redeem points for my flight...750pm...during the flight back i can't help thinking about it...about life...we were given chance by the almighty to live our life in this world...make plans...and keep on living with hope that we will die of the old age...where we will be able to see ourself getting married...have children...be successful in our life...being the pride and joy of our parents...then being able to live our life to the fullest till the day we are ready to meet the almighty...but its just us...only the almighty knows better...

I read somewhere that when we were sent into this world...ada 4 ketetapan yang mengiringi hidup kita...pertama...hidup dan ajal...kedua...rezeki...ketiga...jodoh...dan keempat...qada' dan qadar...ermmmm...it made me reviewed back the life that i have lead till today...

Life is life...yang masih hidup boleh mendoakan yang telah meninggalkan kita...dan kita yang masih hidup boleh meneruskan kehidupan dengan harapan semoga kita ditempatkan bersama orang-orang terpilih disisiNya kelak...insya allah...

FSOM

10 comments:

YanTie AhMad said...

Innalillah...tau jugak cerita psal ni..Hasina mintak tlg sebar kan...

Semoga arwah di tempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman dan di anugerahkan Syahid..Insyallah..

marmalade said...

:( terlalu sedih.

Phoebus Athenos said...

good entry mal. am too devastated to wrote mine.

Khairul Amri Ishak said...

mal:

really appreciate ur entry.
i was blank too last sunday morning when i heard the bad news from ned..:(

muhamadakmalwahab said...

Yantie :
sama-samalah kita mendoakan saudara islam kita...amin...

muhamadakmalwahab said...

Cik Hayati :
Walaupun i tak rapat dengan arwah...but i still can feel her loss...its hard to accept it...

muhamadakmalwahab said...

Deham :
Thanks deham...sama-samalah kita mendoakan kesejahteraan dia di sana...amin...

muhamadakmalwahab said...

Ryo :
Most of us juga cam ko...still can't accept that fact...

missbehave said...

Akmal,
cant ever imagine my life losing a dear fren to my heart...even i penah kehilangan, bukan mati yg memisahkan but she probably decided she had enuff of me, hmmm only she has the answer to that..keep asking the question n traumatised for few years, that lesson made me think that ...i dont mind losing or not having a bf, but cant bear the pain of losing a fren, samaada hidup atau mati...read ur entry n Mala's entry buat tetibe kepala sakit tambah sedih..tabah yerr Akmal

wahdi said...

Al-Fatihah..Salam Takziah bro..aku paham sgt situasi kau skrg, sbb pernah mengalaminya..