Bad Romance

Ini bukan pasal lagu Lady Gaga itu ya...

Suddenly...in the middle of the nite (its actually 1.30 a.m in the morning) i remembered something...i remembered someone...a person...malasnya aku nak ingatkan this particular person...but i dont know why suddenly the memories of us being together emerged from the deep-buried-hatchet...

some said life is full of surprises...i couldnt agree more...one minute you are in, the other minute you are out...

the memory of that day came crashed to my head...it was a terrible thing to think of...a bad memory...and listening to lady gaga's...ohohohoho BAD ROMANCE...i wouldnt say that it is bad actually...we were together for almost 4 years...but then again...it all crumbled...crashing down to bits and pieces...no one to be blame...i wouldnt say that its her fault, neither am i want to say that it is mine...its just that fate happened to intervene and scoop her away...yeah, she was the one who call it off...

back then i was immature (maybe i still am)...nowadays, i learnt from it...i kept ikram's word stucked in my head like a glue...ady intolerable blabbering would re-surface from the back of my mind from time to time when it was called for...dot constant nagging does help giving me a logical perspectives and views...

i do hope that she leads a happy life...i do hope that she just go on and forget all about me...but most of all...i do hope that i could do the same thing that i am hoping for her...that is to forget...forgiving is easily done...forgetting, well...thats something i have to learn to do...

and the final the truth is...i dont want to see her ever again...coz if i do see her again, i can smell bad romance looming...

ajie

1:37 a.m

10 March 2010

Labuan

Cari Jodoh

I am not talking about that Wali Band song...

Tahun ni aku dah 28 (three months away from 28 that is)...dah tua la kot...bagi aku la...pastu bff aku sorang sorang dok menamatkan era single...aiiii....jeleskah aku? yeah i am la...fara already selamat diijabkabulkan last month...niha is getting engaged comes saturday...zaza already engaged and will be married by june...che bimb already got hitched...zaimee already waiting for his first child...me? well...going on with my life...

ady pernah cakap something kat aku yang buatkan aku berfikir jap...he knows that i am soooo (kedengaran sungguh desperate itu) ready to end my singleton status...so ready to be married...but he asked, whether i am ready to get married? ~errrrkkk (ady ini memang sengal sungguh, setetment slalu wat aku kompius)...then i understand...yeah, i am ready to be married...but am i ready to get married...when he said ready to get married, he meant of hosting the event....the 'majlis' lah...ahahahhaha...

lets see...i can afford to be married, but i dont know whether i can afford to get married...my my my...i had been doing a round up check on how much would it cost to host a wedding...with 1000 guest and all the preparations, it would roughly cost about RM12k (caterer, photographer, tents, clothes, cards) if you do it at the comfort of ur own home or plus another RM1k if you are going to do it in a community hall or whatever hall lah (except those convention centres and hotels mind you)...that is only for the event itself...hantaran kahwin dengan duit hantaran dengan cincin tak termasuk lagi....erkkkkk...roughly the 'market' price for hantaran nowadays can easily spell out 5-digits (for a degree holder)...aha....and of course the normal (usual) hantaran would be 7 (the lowest number so far) roughly handbag, perfume set, make-up set, shoes, jewelry set, watch, a set of clothes etc...that can easily spell out another RM2k (if the girl didn't demand prada shoes, cartier jewelry and LV bag that is)...and wedding ring...of coz a 4-digit ring (if you are lucky, if not then 5-digits la kot)...all in all, the least that you have to fork out is about RM25k (so far ini la yang paling rendah aku dengar kawan aku belanja, except for mie-g yang very the simple mimple RM6k hantaran and a wedding that cost him less than RM10k with all those preparations and hantaran)....dasat dasat....owh lupa lak...zaza is two levels my senior in the service and her hantaran is only RM7k...so i seriously trying to fry my brain thinking about whats with the 5-digits duit hantaran???

wow...betul la...hosting the wedding ceremony involves a lot and i mean a lot of RMs...i still remember when my big brother got married, my mom was so excited to host it (coz its the first proper wedding in the family since my big sister got married in the states and held up a small ceremony at our house back then) that it got big with more than 3000 attendance to my big bro's wedding...we had it 'kampung-style' in Balik Pulau (my father's birth place) and just do it our own...but it was fun, tiring and went over the budget (as stated earlier, my mom got excited as it is the first proper wedding ceremony in the family)...but it is okay...even my big brother now has been blessed with a cute lil daughter name Aishah and everyone in the family got new title to be called...and yeah, i am forever Pak Ngah yang comel mind you...

thats just it...wedding and RM are linked in a BIG WAY...so ady gave me some suggestions of how to lower my expenses...memang suggestion yang cam sengal giler...

*first - got married in selatan thailand then come back to Malaysia, paid the fine (would cost about roughly RM2k) then yeah, i am hitched....

*second - do like what one of our friend, dot had done (not that he intentionally finding an orphan that is)....got married to an orphan who had live all her life in orphanage, so dont have to worry about 'duit hantaran'...have one wedding that covers it all...and the best part is, no arguments on balik kampung in raya season...and she embraced his family as her one and only family...hurmmm....

the first one is totally out of a question...but the second one sounds more reasonable...cesss...boleh tak...ady memang one sengal guy...currently i am meeting someone...but i dont know whether it would turn out alright...we have our differences (esp financial-wise) and also a different way of seeing things around us...yeah opposite attracts...but then again...reality check...have to see in the practicality part...camna life after marriage nanti...owh itu okay...but first thing first...how grand she want her wedding to be? owh that is one question that could easily made me choke a breath...

tapi aper aper pon, aku just take on a statement from one of my very close buddy long time ago...jodoh adalah ketentuan tuhan yang tak akan berubah...if god has decided its time for me to get married, i will get married despite being financially-broke as god will show me the way of how am i going to get married...and i feel much better...correction, not much better...just slightly better...ntah la...tengok la camna...for the time being, i just listen to the that wali band song, cari jodoh...

ajie

9.48 a.m

6 March 2010

Putrajaya

Boyfriend...Girlfriend

I just read my fellow blogger's latest entry about A Caring Boyfriend is A Lousy Boyfriend  ...interesting...because my experience was the other way around...when you read the entry you'll understand...

I used to have an ex who would demand me to sms/ call every single morning, afternoon, evening and before going to sleep without fail...if i fail to sms/ call any one of the time frame, there would be a hell to pay...merajuk tak ingat dunia...and being me, ~ada aku kesah~...if you are going to succumb to your own sad world of grumbleness, be my guest...unless if i had done something extremely wrong to deserve a cold shoulder, then i would try to rectify the situation...but if the reason just because i missed one of the 'important' phone call, well then....pergi la merajuk sorang sorang...ooopppsss dah terlari daripada tajuk la plak...

One thing for sure is, there is no specific code of conduct regarding caring...some people would said that actions speak better than words, some would love colorfoul flowerish words, some would even prefer some 'touch'? erkkk...the way i care about others would differs from how others care about their respective partners, friends and family...it is a very subjective choice...a choice that is totally meant individually...if one's choose to show the way he/ she care about their respective partners thru lovely words...be my guest...i am not a 'wordish' person...i don't really believe in giving romantic words...one thing, because i sucks at it...secondly, because i am not hopelessly romantic but i am romantically hope-less...so, don't expect beautiful wordings from me lah...

Now it comes down to how actually you would term that particular partner of yours are lousy or caring? is it from the endearments used? is it from the presents? is it from the attentions given? these are all subjective questions that have different answers if you ask different person...

All in all, as long as you are happy with your relationship...just do the things that make you happy...if the constant calls would enhance your communication, do it....if terms of endearments would florish the love between you, say it...if a present can brighten up your day, buy it (subject to financial ability lah, don't go on making yourself buried in debt because you want to give your respetive partner an LV)...if a touch can calm them down, ermmmm, ask them to pray to god lah....mana boleh sentuh sentuh ni, batal air semayang...hahahah...mamal going on with yet another senseless ramblings...

ajie

9:49 a.m

5 February 2010

Putrajaya

Che Bimb Got Hitched

Another one of my friend masuk dalam list Puan instead of Cik dah...che bimb (atau nama sebenar Suria) memang dah lama mengidam nak kawin...and alhamdulillah jadi nyata la...and i am happy for her as well lah...she is actually one of my officemates who are close...we are in the same group of people...the same circle...so che bimb kick off and then going to be followed by Zaza, Mimy, Fid and then me lah kot...tapi bila...ngak tau lagi...

Usually akad nikah ni family rapat ajer pi....but then again, we are consider as part of the family already...close friends...so Zaza picked up Mimym then straight to Putrajaya to pick up Fid and i...it was quite far la this Sg. Buloh place...almost an hour from Putrajaya...sampai ajer kat sana, i was the only guy okay...and then biasanya, orang laki tak masuk dalam bilik pengantin tu...tapi an exception was made for me lah...sebab bilik ada aircond lagipun...best skit daripada dok kat luar...

Pengantin laki was a lil bit late for the akad...about an hour late...and also there are two more problems that arosed en route to che bimb's house...but okay la...janji semua dah sampai...start la upacara akad nikah...i wont tell how many times that akad was done...hahahahahaha....

Done with the akad...of coz...makan time la...foodies on da rock....the food was great...roti jala, bihun singapore and kuih watever ntah aku pun tak ingat nama dia aper...aku tau makan ajer...so overall, che bimb is no longer singleton...now she already has a husband...and i do hope that she wont go around bullying her husband la....to che bimb...selamat pengantin baru and semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu....

ajie
11:23 a.m
11 January 2010
Putrajaya

Taken

Just one note...
I am not available...
I am taken...
How would you decipher this?

ajie
3:03 p.m
21 December 2009
Putrajaya

With Love, Ms Chocolates

I am not feeling well since my laptop crashed...makan tak lalu (tipu sangat la kot)...shopping pon takder mood (2 pasang dah kasut masuk dalam keta)...tido tak lena (dalam kursus slambadak ajer tido)...mandi tak basah (siap memain air lagi dengan si Obi ari tu)...and i don't feel up to it....creating new memories that is...coz i still cherish the lost ones....

But it all went thru the window when i went back...there was a box of chocolate at my flat....actually there were a box of ferrero and 3 bars of cadbury and another packet of hersheys kisses to be exact and not to be missed, a small box of Godiva...and there was a note...a simple note...with simple scribbled words...yet understandable...

*May your new memories are as sweet as cholocates*
xoxo

I was flabbergasted...feeling better...as the day turns up to be as sweet as the chocolates....its all becoz of dear Ms. Chocolates...thanks to you, who ever you are or where ever you are....

ajie
3:02 p.m
25 November 2009
Putrajaya

Sekarang Cinta Pakai Otak

Aku tengah driving pergi kerja pagi when i first heard of this song...all i can catch was Hey Ladies...mesti lagu indonesia inieh...and cam sora Rossa...oklah fine...then bila sampai kerja kebetulan staff aku pasang lagu nie...terus la aku tanya dia tajuk apa...then i download it from the internet....then aku pon dengar kat iPod aku...then i found that the lyrics is interesting....

Tapi betul la aku memang boleh relate lagu dengan sebahagian kengkawan pompuan yang aku kenal (no offense okay, just based on observation)....you see nowadays, bley ler tengok yang laki ni makin berkurang la (tu tak tolak lagi the ones that is totally out of the picture)...so all the girls have to berebut okay to get a guy (ooopsss)...but then again, some got a total NO NO NO kind of guy and they are okay with it as long as they have someone to call as their boy friend instead of just being plain single (true okay, statement yang aku dengar from some of girls)...giler ngok ngek okay...tapi aku tak salahkan diorang la...it is a matters of a heart (oooopsss) tapi kekadang aku rasa its more on the matters of loneliness (ooopss i see it coming, mesti aku kena hempuk nieh)....not that i call them desperados la, but just think la...use your brain...cam lagu si Rossa tu - Cinta Pakai Otak Jangan Rugi Hati Rugi Waktu...

Sudah Ku Bilang Jangan Terlalu Yakin, the starting of the song totally dedicated to the girls who are too blind to see what is in front of their eyes...or they see and know it but they just choose to ignore it...ulang balik...PAKAI OTAK!!! aku kekadang geram betul with some of the girls that i know who are totally and 'faithfully' supported their boyfriends' wrongdoing...not that others want to interfere with their relationship, but the thing is please lah...Nanti Patah Hati Siapa Mau Nolong?...mai ler terkedek kedek balik kat kengkawan ini yang dah ulang berulang kali....deng tak? dulu waktu zaman berpeleseran orang bagitau taknak dengar, then when the thing doesn't went towards her way baru ler nak carik balik kengkawan....itu lagi satu yang aku bengang...why when you have a relationship (other than marriages), you have to give up your friends who had been by your side thruout your life (even thruout your 'courting' period okay, some even help out)....yo! korang kenal kengkawan lagi lama daripada kenal bf/ gf korang kottt!!! (for this case it applied to both gender)...

Kita Juga Bisa Menipu Dan Menduakan....totally true....i never object to this particular phrase....ingat laki ajer yang dok menipu? pompuan pon ada jugak okay...and sucks giler...aku pon tak tau ler apsal orang highlight laki ajer menipu as kalau menipu pon dengan pompuan lain yang means that particular pompuan lain itu juga terlibat dalam penipuan secara tidak langsung....Memanglah Tidak Semua Lelaki Busuk...of coz la hello...aku salah sorang yang tak busuk okay...minyak wangi ada lagi kat rumah...tak pakai pon still senantiasa okay ajer...(tapi aku still teringat dulu keja kat kopibin, si Natasha Hudson masuk abis satu kedai bau wangi giler)....hahahahahaha

Then sh*t happens pastu departed both your ways datang la menangis nangis....hurmmm...kalau tak, asyik ajer tinggal kawan...aku gerem betul dengan orang camnie....ya la...aku pun pernah la gak berkapel kan...but never i discard my friends...eventho sometimes memang terpaksa la kan...but not everytime la...sampai kan ada some tu siap suh rahsiakan jumpa diorang takut nanti bf jeles...huh???aperkah???what ever lah...

But the thing is, i just try to look back on what had happened around and i know that there are lots of people yang bercinta tapi tak berfikir panjan...sorry to say lah...and satu lagi aku heran la kan...setiap kali berkapel dok i love you , you love me la....huh? aku heran la sangat....setiapkali kapel baru its all about love...but hello if you already been thru more than 3 relationship that you 'claimed' it that it was based on love, i dont believe it...based on lust is more accurate...ya la...for me la kan (not everybody thinks the same)...its not easy for you to fall in love...and for you to fall out of it...if anyone come to me and say they are in love everytime they have a single crush or start a relationship....well first time - i will say good for you, second time - hope that its not a rebound love, third time - are you sure????? fourth time and after that - owh yeah...great (~sarcastic tone applied~)...until the time when you got married and you say you are in love, then i would say ~i wish i could be like you as well~ honestly....otherwise, its just another telenovela in the making lah....

Maybe that's why la aku still single kot...coz i dont find a person whom i want to love (just yet)...and i still remember Ikram's advice, just let yourself caught up with emotions with your truly wedded wife...otherwise it is all kinda not real...as you dont know whether the person you are dating is actually your soulmate...hurmmm...and furthermore la kan, its easier that way...no complication of emotions...nak break it off pon senang...tiada element patah hati di sini....kalau nanti la ditakdirkan aku jumpa la jodoh aku...tarak la nak tunang ker haper ker....ON ajer terus....hahaha...ya la...kalau difikirkan la...if seriously you are in love, what are you waiting for? sealed it lah....so kesimpulannya fikirlah....and believe me i try to use it in this particular matter....never let your heart clouds away what's in your brain...

ajie
3:35 p.m
12 November 2009
Putrajaya

Chances Are?

I had been reading one of my friend's entry about second chances...i can feel the depth of emotions in that particular entry...second chances are sometimes the best thing that could ever happen in our life...but then again after reviewing the predicament of what context the second chances are subjected to, i just think that not everything deserve a second chance...

You lied to your friend - deserve second chance
You ate your friend's biscuit - deserve second chance
You got separated because of misunderstanding - deserve second chance
You act unhonorably under tremendous pressure - deserve second chance

BUT

You broke his heart, left him staggered feeling way beneath the worms underneath the ground that you step everyday, destroyed any dreams and hope that once were great, letting him gone nearly went insane for being dumped as if worth nothing, not a single cent, crippling him and crashing his self-confidence that made him want to seclude himself from the outside world and wishing tomorrow will never come - second chance?

ANSWER

Should i answer that?

ajie
10:42 a.m
16 October 2009
PUTRAJAYA

Hopeless Romantic Or Romantic Hopeless

Its the same word...
But it bears a different meaning once its switched...

Hopeless romantic are for those who always dream on romantic feelings..
Romantic things...
Candle lite dinner..
Bouqet of roses...
Trip to Paris...
Being alone together...
etc

Romantic hopeless are for those who can't seem to be romantic at all..
Have no clue about being romantic...
And fail when they try...

Which one are you?

Gadis Senaskah Al-Quran

I like this....
One of my bff kinda utter it out...
I find myself drawn to it...
Some might call it a fantasy...
Other may say ~Dream On~
Its the odd one out...
May it be 1 : 1,000,000....
Or she doesn't exist...
But i have faith...
I do believe in God...
Only God knows best...
I'll pray for that every single day...
Insya allah...

ajie
10:55 p.m
14 October 2009
PUTRAJAYA

Getting Married Or Getting Financially Broke?

Lately i found myself thinking about marriage (thanks to my friends who already found their other half)....some of my friends thought that i am THAT desperate to get married...well i DO want to get married, but i am NOT that desperate...after some buddies talk with my close friends, i like to let it be...and let god decide for me whats good for me...who's the one that i should pick or who's the one that i will grow old with...i leave it in the hands of god...~jodoh adalah ketentuan tuhan yang tidak berubah~

Recently i listen to one of my bosses talking about his son's upcoming marriage...and he blatantly told us that it is not cheap to get married...hurmmm...hearing how much he have to spent for his son's marriage (huh? the father paid for the son's wedding, how 'wonderful') all of us who are still single best be prepared for when it is the time for either one of us to get married...

I don't really believe in spending extravagantly for a wedding...call me a loser, unromantic or kedekut, and i don't care....coz the way i see it....it is the bond is more important...religion-wise i mean...i heard some of my friends who had up to RM30,000 as the dowry along with handbags, perfumes, shoes that only spells out more zeros at the back...well...if you are up to and totally can afford it, why not...but for those who aren't that lucky to have their 'father' to PAY for the wedding and starving themselves every month so that they can meet the demand of the intended's family of high dowry, then i feel sorry for them...some even resort to a personal loan to get married...which is totally acceptable as long as you know that the person is the ONE for you....if it falls apart in the middle of the life-long journey, then i feel sorry for them be paying their ruined marriage (on top of the alimony and all) long even after they are separated...that would be 'awesome'~sarcastic tone applied~

Talking about dowry, once i asked a friend how much she would be demanding for her dowry...and not to my surprise, she quoted 5 figures...its like 'the market' price nowadays...and if she go any lower, people around would question why she is so 'cheap'....huh? i was totally flabbergasted...i never known until that day that people have market price for dowries in Malaysia...if the girl have diploma, there's a price, if she have degree, it would be a lil bit higher, and it goes on (education-wise)...then i was wondering how much it would cost for a PhD holder...not to mention if she is the youngest and the sisters are all married, she must have HIGHER dowry than her previous married sisters....huh? i was rendered speechless....call me a dreamer if you want, but i am waiting for a girl who would say to me that she would be content to have 'SENASKAH AL-QURAN & SEHELAI SEJADAH' for her dowry...yeah i can hear people saying ~Dream On~....coz in this materialistic world, the odds are 1:10,000 for that would happen...or more....but i am betting on the odds...huaauahauahauah

Wedding ceremony is just a day where the couple sharing their happiest day of their life with their relatives, neighbors and friends...and i don't think that extravagant spells out more happiness (unless if the girl is ONLY gonna be happy with big wedding)...as for me...a modest wedding would be just nice...just celebrate with family and friends and close neighbors in the neighborhood...you can indeed have a modest wedding and still be happy....and enjoy every moment of it without thinking that you spend too much on your wedding...what if suddenly most of your friends and relatives can't make it to your lavish & extravagant wedding as they have other 'important' engagement in their hands? what if you already have their RSVP and had their seats paid (for those who held it in hotels and convention centre) and having seeing the seats are empty? and it hurts badly when it cost more than RM100 for that particular one seat....think about it...

Ironically enough i have a friend who's girlfriend (now already wife la) who just content on having 'senaskah Al-Quran & sehelai sejadah' as her dowry...they have a modest ceremony (on the guy's side) having invited relatives and close friends as well as neighbors to come and celebrate their wedding done in the comfort of his home...no pelamin, only astaka decorated wonderfully with flower and petals for the total purpose of taking pictures...the pictures came out great, the wedding had great ambience served with the normal wedding cuisines...and they are happy to celebrate it that way (eventho on the girl's side they held it in Hilton Hotel)...i went to both weddings and i rather like the former...it felt better and much more alive....and i still remember what both my friend and his wife told me, 'have a modest wedding and you can spend it more on yourself going for honeymoon or umrah with your love ones' (which he was referring to his wife la)...hurmm...i kinda like the idea...huahuahuah....

Extravagant or not, people are entitled to have a say of how they would love to have their wedding ceremony done...and it is by choice...then again, marriage is not only for one day....the ceremony, yeah it is for one day (or some have it 7 nites celebration ~huh~), but the bond last forever....or that is until you have irrevocable differences....

ajie

10:39 p.m

13 October 2009

PUTRAJAYA