Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Being Right About Wrong Things

I got a message from someone dear to me...and it was disturbing...deng what da heck...aku baru ajer nak lupuskan perception aku about this particular thingie...tapi bila dah dapat message camtu, terus la re-confirm aku punya perception....denggg...i hate it when i am right about wrong things....

Aku pun just give in some piece of my mind...memang it had became a stigma for since like forever...aku dah cam lupa dah pasal benda ni sebab somehow it manage to deteriorate few years back...tapi kali ni it came back with a vengeance and aku tau this is the biggest thing yet that i have to face...dalam keadaan sekarang yang aku agak la 'jiwa kacau' gak...aku dok merayap jalan-jalan cari masjid every nite with my good buddy...yang kebetulan also facing the same element of 'jiwa kacau' like me...but it is not something psychotic la...aku still sane...takder ler tekanan perasaan or tekanan jiwa...just  'jiwa kacau' about making choices....aduhai...nasib baik ada member in the same pod...bagus jugak... cleansing of the soul....

Usually aku akan sleep over it and get it all over with by the next day...tapi kali ni aku tak pasti whether i will get over it over some nite sleep...yang pastinya, it marks one of the highlights of my life....and to which extend, i am not sure yet....tapi it also gonna effect me in a way how i perceive this thing that could also very well be determining how i am supposed to look about for the future....

Last but not least...i am not about just to let it go....i know i have to do something about it...and i know that it wont be pretty....but yet again, i acknowledge that this is the life i lead...

ajie
1:12 a.m
21 October 2009
Putrajaya

11 comments:

Jaja Yunizah said...

mmm....u got a lot of thinking there buddy

zetty said...

oh uh... what are you going to do now?

zetty said...

oh uh... what are you going to do now?

muhamadakmalwahab said...

jaja : its just me...i bet everyone have their own set of probs...and mine might be petty compared to some others...
zetty : i dont know exactly...but one thing for sure...this thing is kinda sensitive....and it involve a lot of people who are important to me...

marmalade said...
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muhamadakmalwahab said...

OMAIGOTTTTTT
of coz not la cik mala oitttt....
that is a definite NO NO

dizzyfly said...

makaih. apesal blog kwn-kwn semua dalam gundah gulana ini? ko ok tak mal, agak pelik la bila ko ok saja bila kita cancel mengeteh.

Pengejar Masa said...

apa yg No NO tu?

muhamadakmalwahab said...

fara : aku okay ajer...apa maksud ko yang ko rasa pelik yang aku okay bila kita cancel mengeteh?

hadi : soalan mala agak maut..sengal tul...hahaha..tanya la cik mala...hahahah

nazat said...

mamal.. hopefully u will found the happiness in u.. :D

nazat said...

mamal.. hopefully u will found the happiness in u.. :D