Being Right About Wrong Things

I got a message from someone dear to me...and it was disturbing...deng what da heck...aku baru ajer nak lupuskan perception aku about this particular thingie...tapi bila dah dapat message camtu, terus la re-confirm aku punya perception....denggg...i hate it when i am right about wrong things....

Aku pun just give in some piece of my mind...memang it had became a stigma for since like forever...aku dah cam lupa dah pasal benda ni sebab somehow it manage to deteriorate few years back...tapi kali ni it came back with a vengeance and aku tau this is the biggest thing yet that i have to face...dalam keadaan sekarang yang aku agak la 'jiwa kacau' gak...aku dok merayap jalan-jalan cari masjid every nite with my good buddy...yang kebetulan also facing the same element of 'jiwa kacau' like me...but it is not something psychotic la...aku still sane...takder ler tekanan perasaan or tekanan jiwa...just  'jiwa kacau' about making choices....aduhai...nasib baik ada member in the same pod...bagus jugak... cleansing of the soul....

Usually aku akan sleep over it and get it all over with by the next day...tapi kali ni aku tak pasti whether i will get over it over some nite sleep...yang pastinya, it marks one of the highlights of my life....and to which extend, i am not sure yet....tapi it also gonna effect me in a way how i perceive this thing that could also very well be determining how i am supposed to look about for the future....

Last but not least...i am not about just to let it go....i know i have to do something about it...and i know that it wont be pretty....but yet again, i acknowledge that this is the life i lead...

ajie
1:12 a.m
21 October 2009
Putrajaya